Can I feel it?

I give up before I can be given up on.

It's the truth, as much as I try to deny it to myself I know that that's how it is. So the fact is that, that combined with my paranoia means I often hurt myself more than others hurt me.

Because I say to myself that I can see it coming, that it's there on the horizon - fastly approaching, why not jump out now instead of having the head on collision.

Sometimes you just need to save yourself...
right?

I don't even know anymore, I don't know anything anymore.